Pressure

Today (and yesterday) I had what I think is round ligament pain and the baby must have moved lower because I feel a bunch of pelvis pressure on and off. The baby is moving around a bunch though so that makes me happy. When I got to work I started to feel light headed so I decided to come home and work from home/take a sick day. It might have just been anxiety making me light-headed, who knows. I do think all these hormomes relaxing my muscles could be playing a role.

I watched the end of one episode of BABY STORY--I have not been doing this--for years, for infertility reasons and now because I don't need to see people in pain pushing babies out--no thanks! When the woman got to the end of her laboring I had an automatic crying response. Not that I was sad, but really I couldn't control it. It was an odd sensation--very odd.

Today one of the people above me at work wrote a snitty email to me--and it usually would make me so infuriated--but I have to tell you, I don't care anymore--I can feel my priorities already changing. I was literally like--whatever--this is your issue not mine. I have other things to worry about--like is that pain on the right side of my pelvis round ligament pain or a foot.

...and it felt really  good.

I have been letting myself get excited about meeting baby. My registry is still overwhelming. And I still worry at times that something will happen to our baby--but not as often and not as intensly.