First Trimester Fog

So, I have not blogged in forever. I have been in nausea and headache land on and off--today is the first time I have been headache free in a week and I am SO happy! The baby seems fine, we had our 12 week ultrasound and the baby was crazy!! Flipping around and making involuntary jolts, putting his/her hands up. I was just in awe of the whole thing. The whole time I just kept saying "this is crazy" over and over again.

I also had spotting for a while--but when I stopped the Endometrin at the 12 week marks it stopped--which has been a huge relief. Now, if I have a pain or feel something weird--I just tell myself if there is no blood, then I am not going to worry---even if there is blood there is little to be done. After my 12 week ultrasound a lot of the fear of losing the baby lifted and/or the idea that I have no control over what happens settled in and/or my symptoms have escalated and I have had less time to worry.

Then we had our dr's appt on Friday (12/30) to discuss migraines (having the worst headache of my life on wed (12/28) night). She said I could take percocet (which I refuse to do), especially since she said it just might take the edge off. The rest of the week was mostly sinus headaches so my mood fluctuated with my pain. It has been a really uncomfortable experience--but it makes me appreciate when I feel better so much more!

I still am blessed, I just don't always feel blessed when I am in pain and immobile or cancelling plans based on my mood/pain level. I truly do hope my 2nd trimester brings me relief.