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I had just started to feel good--for the last two weeks and then yesterday I woke up toppled over in pain--I thought maybe it was gas so I walked around for like 45 minutes--but no real relief--I decided to go to the ER--and there they did an ultrasound to see if it was my appendix (no ultrasound on the baby, but the heartbeat was 130)---but it wasn't my appendix---GOD IS GOOD! But I still had the pain--after 4 hours they discharged me saying it was round ligament pain--It got worse but then this AM--after sleeping on a 90 degree angle on my side, with a heating pack and a big pillow between my knees---it seems to have calmed down--But the fear it could come back is still strong. I mean, I thought when people talked about Round ligament pain they were talking about a little stretching, not someone stabbing you in the belly button and dragging the knife to your right side!!!

20 weeks tomorrow---It is so odd for me to think that last March this baby was made---after my egg retrieval, this baby was 1/21 eggs ---and now is on it's way to being a baby. Our baby. We have our 20 week ultrasound on Monday and so far I am pretty calm although I am sure subconsciously I am freaking out. My one big hope (besides the baby being on track growth wise) is that the ultrasound tech doesn't slip and let us see the sex of the baby--it really is important to us to be suprised--I am sure though that they have done it a million times and never accidentally exposed anything.

The baby moves a little now, not all the time, but enough to remind me it is there--I am sure it is actually moving a lot, but I just feel it a little. My husband has felt it too--I think it freaks him out a little --but it freaks me out a lot, so I guess we are a good balance!