75 Menopur 375 Follistim (oops, did I spell that wrong again). My first u/s is tomorrow and I am so excited to be on the brink of answers. I also have to tell you that on Tuesday night, the moment after I took my injections-that my DH gives me (too happily I think)--I felt immediately better. Maybe it was stress manifesting, or anxiety, but that I felt better instantly made me happy, and feel like a fool. It did make me realize that I need to incorporate more stress reducing exercies into my life. I didn't even feel stressed, but the new job and the stims starting I must have been, right?
No side effects, which is making me very very happy (knock on wood). Although I do feel hot, but that is fine. I can handle feeling hot if it is the only side effect I have. I will post my U/S and bloodwork results tomorrow--hopefully I get to lower my dose of Follistom because 375 seems a little high!
My hope for today---continue headache free--PLEASE!! Oh and since I didn't post yesterday--my hope for yesterday was NO OHSS.
I am a 35 (almost 36) year old with a supportive and loving husband and one fabulous golden fur-baby! After many failed IUI's and a fresh IVF cycle ending in ectopic---We had a successful FET. 40 weeks of disbelief later we are parents to a beautiful baby girl--every moment I spend with our baby reminds me of how blessed and lucky we are. ...read at your own risk. Of course not one thing I write is meant to offend or upset anyone.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Pain..meds
My pain moved to right above my pelvis today. I felt bloated and horrible. I started my injectables tonight. Follistom 375 and Menopur 75 and the devoted husband goes on antibiotics (the same kind our dog was on for lymes disease)...weird. I talked to the covering RE and there was nothing wrong with the ultrasound or blood work. My RE asked for the ER records to review...I sent the release to the hospital, but as of 2pm they still hadn't faxed them, but I got the go ahead because the all clear was given to me at the hospital and at my appointment today. First ultrasound Friday. They have put 2 docs on our monitoring hours and they have been so much faster lately! Bonus!
My hope ...these follies grow to be a good size, look great, fertilize well, and implant. No cancelations! No snags! No snafus! No problem!
My hope ...these follies grow to be a good size, look great, fertilize well, and implant. No cancelations! No snags! No snafus! No problem!
Monday, March 7, 2011
ER...and not the good kind
So, I have mentioned that I tend to be a hypocondriact, right? Today the day started like any other..and at about 11 I got these really weird pains on my side that moved to my back. I made it through til 2 but then I couldn't go to my 2nd job. I had never felt this kind of pain...too intense to ignore or work through. I ended up driving to the ER, where the triage nurse was convinced it was galbladder issues....but after an ultrasound to rule gallbladder issues out, a MRI to rule out kidney stones and blood and urine samples to rule out infection, the ER doc thought it might be the Estrace. She gave me what they call 'super-Motrin and sent me on my way. Not a good way to start an IVF journey. My wonderful husband said, 'I have a feeling this is just the beginning...'. Being a hypocondriact doesn't mean I like ER's or attention....I do like piece of mind, but I was in a lot of pain. It makes me doubt I can handle the pain of being pregnant and having a child. It makes me wonder what I am putting my body through.
On a different note, I volunteer at my church, and we had a teen mass I had to go to. While sitting there I grabbed the book with all the readings and as I was thumbing through the reading I opened up to was Sam1. The story aboutHannah, who was infertile and promised her child to God if she was able to have one... She did and as promised gave it up to God. I sat there and thought about all the times I made instances like this one into signs. You know like, I had to do an IUI on Christmas, that's a sign. So many times, so many stories. And since I still have hope, I did the same thing this time, sat there and came up with baby names. Wondering how Hannah had the strength to give up her baby.
I still have pain, but not nearly as badly. I am going to the clinic 1st thing to tell them what happened...or to see if my uterus imploded...because it sure felt like it did.
My hope ...that I have the strength to do this.
On a different note, I volunteer at my church, and we had a teen mass I had to go to. While sitting there I grabbed the book with all the readings and as I was thumbing through the reading I opened up to was Sam1. The story aboutHannah, who was infertile and promised her child to God if she was able to have one... She did and as promised gave it up to God. I sat there and thought about all the times I made instances like this one into signs. You know like, I had to do an IUI on Christmas, that's a sign. So many times, so many stories. And since I still have hope, I did the same thing this time, sat there and came up with baby names. Wondering how Hannah had the strength to give up her baby.
I still have pain, but not nearly as badly. I am going to the clinic 1st thing to tell them what happened...or to see if my uterus imploded...because it sure felt like it did.
My hope ...that I have the strength to do this.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Day 1
I am happy that it is day 1! Although, I have to say the cramps are killing me. I am usually not a cramp sufferer. Two things are going through my mind.
1. If this is just cramps, how am I going to deal with having a baby, since I am not a proponent of pain meds...these cramps are killing me.
2. Parents are a big deal. We are on the brink of something big. There is nobody in our lives who has known us as long as our parent, or has had such an impact. There is a huge responsibility in choosing to be a mom and a dad. And for us this is not something that has just happened or surprised us...we are choosing it....100%. Choosing it and having little control over it at the same time. Eeeek!
I said both these things to my husband and to #2 he said, Jenn, you always say that I know I know, it's a big deal.... I may have been having a moment of clarity, while he was having a moment of playing with the dog. To #1 he said...call me when he/she is getting on the bus to go to kindergarten (thats what he thinks).
Got the call that day 3 is Tuesday...U/S and bloodwork...and then the injectables begin.
Did i say how the interview went? It went well i think and it is an exciting opportunity and i am supposed to call them tomorrow to tell them what i think and then they will let me know the week of the 15th. It is hourly and flexible and the money is really good. It is the kind of job that might be exactly what I need to have a flexible schedule. I am keeping my fingers crossed that it is a match!
My hope for today...that these damn cramps go away.
1. If this is just cramps, how am I going to deal with having a baby, since I am not a proponent of pain meds...these cramps are killing me.
2. Parents are a big deal. We are on the brink of something big. There is nobody in our lives who has known us as long as our parent, or has had such an impact. There is a huge responsibility in choosing to be a mom and a dad. And for us this is not something that has just happened or surprised us...we are choosing it....100%. Choosing it and having little control over it at the same time. Eeeek!
I said both these things to my husband and to #2 he said, Jenn, you always say that I know I know, it's a big deal.... I may have been having a moment of clarity, while he was having a moment of playing with the dog. To #1 he said...call me when he/she is getting on the bus to go to kindergarten (thats what he thinks).
Got the call that day 3 is Tuesday...U/S and bloodwork...and then the injectables begin.
Did i say how the interview went? It went well i think and it is an exciting opportunity and i am supposed to call them tomorrow to tell them what i think and then they will let me know the week of the 15th. It is hourly and flexible and the money is really good. It is the kind of job that might be exactly what I need to have a flexible schedule. I am keeping my fingers crossed that it is a match!
My hope for today...that these damn cramps go away.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Estrace priming day 2
Still no headache :)
Although it turns out about 1-2 hrs after I take it I feel kinda nauseated. Not fun, but not horrible and I take it over a headache any day. I did find myself kind of emotional today too. But tomorrow is Friday and Friday makes everything better (and the Jersey shore is on tonight)!
I also have my job interview tomorrow, which I actually studied for??? I wish all I need to pass my pregnancy test is all the research and web-MD-ing I have done. wishful thinking.
Hope for today....that the interview goes really well and it is a job I want!
Although it turns out about 1-2 hrs after I take it I feel kinda nauseated. Not fun, but not horrible and I take it over a headache any day. I did find myself kind of emotional today too. But tomorrow is Friday and Friday makes everything better (and the Jersey shore is on tonight)!
I also have my job interview tomorrow, which I actually studied for??? I wish all I need to pass my pregnancy test is all the research and web-MD-ing I have done. wishful thinking.
Hope for today....that the interview goes really well and it is a job I want!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Day 1 Estrace Prime
Another thing for my June list---I have decided to try-out for a play that I absolutely love in August--Steel Magnolias--I have only been reciting the lines since I was in high school--and perfecting my Southern accent. Even if I am pregnant I might try-out. My acting career is limited at best--but it is an all time favorite of mine. Also, I have decided to go back to school --for another Masters OR to law school. I just don't want to be someone who has their fertility define them. We are going to do everything that science allows us to do and then we are going to let it be....
On a different note I am amazingly headache free after the estrace. I am a migraine suffer (and it seems like so is everyone else in fertility blog land--they should really study the correlation between menstrual migraine sufferers and fertility issues) and I was afraid that increased Estrogen might affect my headaches. Knock on wood, not yet!
Also, I have been looking for another job for a year now. To get better benefits that I don't have to pay for or to make more money so I won't feel it as much every month. I have a job interview on Friday that I am actually nervous about. Usually I am not nervous at all, but this one has me spooked. We will see. There is not a lot of pressure on me now, since starting a new job in a fertility cycle is not the best idea, but it can't hurt to put myself out there.
I am off to take the miniscule pills that dissolve in your mouth before you can swallow them and watch Greek (which, yes, I realize, I am too old to watch).
My hope for today..that I remain headache free!
On a different note I am amazingly headache free after the estrace. I am a migraine suffer (and it seems like so is everyone else in fertility blog land--they should really study the correlation between menstrual migraine sufferers and fertility issues) and I was afraid that increased Estrogen might affect my headaches. Knock on wood, not yet!
Also, I have been looking for another job for a year now. To get better benefits that I don't have to pay for or to make more money so I won't feel it as much every month. I have a job interview on Friday that I am actually nervous about. Usually I am not nervous at all, but this one has me spooked. We will see. There is not a lot of pressure on me now, since starting a new job in a fertility cycle is not the best idea, but it can't hurt to put myself out there.
I am off to take the miniscule pills that dissolve in your mouth before you can swallow them and watch Greek (which, yes, I realize, I am too old to watch).
My hope for today..that I remain headache free!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
So close and yet so far...
Went for my blood work today--doctor said it looked fine. 2mg of Estrace in the morning 2mg of Estrace in the evening --BY MOUTH! Then day one, which should be Mon or Tues, call my nurse. Day 3 blood work and ultrasound then stim drugs for 10 days (probably, but of course that depends) and then, ta-da ==retrival. That seems close. How did it go from seeming forever away to so close? This AM I thought-if they make me wait all of March of Estrace I am not going to be able to wait that long, but now, I can't believe we could be pregnant is April (because if PGD happens, then we are looking at snow babies, since they biopsy on Day 5 or 6). We have decided that if they only retrieve and have less than 3 embryos on day 3 --then we most likely won't do PGD. Although I think it could give us more answers, If we have a BFN on IVF #1 and didn't do PGD, we are just going to end up doing it the next time anyway.
Speaking of PGD I went to a local bakery to get my coffee after blood work today and there were these 2 boy (maybe 9-10) with their dad. They were totally acting up--pressing their face against the glass and complaining about cheese in their danish. I try not to silently judge parents since I will be one soon (hopefully) and I don't want to believe other grown ups are judging my parenting skills. Anyway, when I got in the car, I thought, here I am on the brink of being able to pick the gender of my baby--and 2 boys, seems, ummm, scary. Then I thought, maybe we should pick, either we will or a embryologist (that I won't even meet) will, but I feel comfortable with choosing the best 2 (and I still believe, as said in earlier posts, that if they are all the same they do one of each). I know, I know, I will be happy as long as they are healthy--even if they press their faces against glass, in a bakery, with lots of strangers around...silently judging.
My hope for today, that my fellow fertility sisters--find peace in their hope tonight.
Speaking of PGD I went to a local bakery to get my coffee after blood work today and there were these 2 boy (maybe 9-10) with their dad. They were totally acting up--pressing their face against the glass and complaining about cheese in their danish. I try not to silently judge parents since I will be one soon (hopefully) and I don't want to believe other grown ups are judging my parenting skills. Anyway, when I got in the car, I thought, here I am on the brink of being able to pick the gender of my baby--and 2 boys, seems, ummm, scary. Then I thought, maybe we should pick, either we will or a embryologist (that I won't even meet) will, but I feel comfortable with choosing the best 2 (and I still believe, as said in earlier posts, that if they are all the same they do one of each). I know, I know, I will be happy as long as they are healthy--even if they press their faces against glass, in a bakery, with lots of strangers around...silently judging.
My hope for today, that my fellow fertility sisters--find peace in their hope tonight.
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