Day 1

I am happy that it is day 1! Although, I have to say the cramps are killing me. I am usually not a cramp sufferer. Two things are going through my mind.
1. If this is just cramps, how am I going to deal with having a baby, since I am not a proponent of pain meds...these cramps are killing me.

2. Parents are a big deal. We are on the brink of something big. There is nobody in our lives who has known us as long as our parent, or has had such an impact. There is a huge responsibility in choosing to be a mom and a dad. And for us this is not something that has just happened or surprised us...we are choosing it....100%. Choosing it and having little control over it at the same time. Eeeek!

I said both these things to my husband and to #2 he said, Jenn, you always say that I know I know, it's a big deal.... I may have been having a moment of clarity, while he was having a moment of playing with the dog. To #1 he said...call me when he/she is getting on the bus to go to kindergarten (thats what he thinks).

Got the call that day 3 is Tuesday...U/S and bloodwork...and then the injectables begin.

Did i say how the interview went? It went well i think and it is an exciting opportunity and i am supposed to call them tomorrow to tell them what i think and then they will let me know the week of the 15th. It is hourly and flexible and the money is really good. It is the kind of job that might be exactly what I need to have a flexible schedule. I am keeping my fingers crossed that it is a match!

My hope for today...that these damn cramps go away.