Easter Bunny

I feel like the Easter Bunny with all these eggs on board. I haven't heard from my nurse as of yet, but I will update later with what my instructions are. It seemed like we had about 9-10 total follicles between 12-14. The doctor estimated it would be Saturday, but it could be as early as Friday. Today I got an email about a second interview....for Friday. I had to ask them to reschedule, which stinks, but I can't be waffling back and forth with them. It would be worse to cancel at the last minute! I am really really happy about being called for the 2nd interview!

The good news  is I feel really good, cold is gone, no pains. I think my ovaries are getting more full so there is some small pangs, but nothing intense. I am nervous about the retrieval, but we aren't talking about 30 eggs here, so hopefully the process will go smoothly and only take about 15-20 minutes. I have been fine in the past with anesthesia, so let's hope that holds true. I could also do without any cramping, bleeding or complications after! Oh and then progesterone suppositories, my clinic used to do shots, but they switched to suppositories, which is a + (hard to believe suppositories are a +). In the past I have been on progesterone 2 times for approx 2 weeks (probably becuase I didn't ovulate during IUI's). It makes me so so sleepy, like too tired to pick up my arms to change the TV channel tired. Like, oops, did I nod off in that meeting sleepy. I guess I would rather be sleepy than bitchy, but let's face it, I am probably bitchy too. With that said, I would rather be bitchy.

I keep thinking about retrieval, but not transfer, because if they retrieve 4 or more eggs than we are doing PGD (day 5,  22 chromosome test) and most likely will be pushed to freeze. I wouldn't mind a FET (frozen embryo transfer), that way I could have time between me and all these meds. According to my clinic's stats the success rates don't seem to change that much with FET's. Although I am  a strong believer in fresh is better than frozen, although experts say veggies are just as goot when they are frozen, so maybe the same is true for maybe babies.

The closer this gets the less real it seems and the more unsure/nervous I become. I sometimes have the feeling the train has left the station. I know this might be me being cautiously pessimistic, but I remember how a few weeks ago I was so excited. And now, I don't feel excited at all. Like my feelings have gone into hybernation mode. It seems the train will stop at disappointment or (cautious) exictement, but until then, I am just along for the ride.

My hope for today---a Friday retrieval--I want a day off work AND I don't want to have cancelled that interview for nothing.


Some cute cartoons....
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