This word came to mind on the way home. It is the perfect reflection of my feeling. I am setting myself up to be ready for surgery. So if there is good news that I don't need it then that will be great. This waiting is so much worse than any 2ww! I just want this to be over. I think back to all the time I spent analyzing what every twinge and number meant, for what? I am disgusted by the whole thing at this point. I want a zero so I can go away for the weekend. Anywhere but here would be fine, and the farther away I get from my clinic the better. I can't even begin to think of when to. Plan this for as of right now. I wonder if it sounds like i am being dramatic, i trust you, I am not. Also, i refuse to be positive or look on the bright side or downplay the situation. This sucks. More than i ever thought it could.
Hope....drop it down already!
I am a 35 (almost 36) year old with a supportive and loving husband and one fabulous golden fur-baby! After many failed IUI's and a fresh IVF cycle ending in ectopic---We had a successful FET. 40 weeks of disbelief later we are parents to a beautiful baby girl--every moment I spend with our baby reminds me of how blessed and lucky we are. ...read at your own risk. Of course not one thing I write is meant to offend or upset anyone.
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