Tearing up...

I have found two reactions with family when you tell them you are dealing with your fertility---over or under involved. I do think it is funny that so often we wish people would say the right thing, but I don't really know what the right thing is---I really give people a pass, I keep my expectations low.

Valentine's Day is tomorrow and J and I have decided to give each other the gift of medical insurance--with the amount we spend on it each month--who can afford flowers! The truth is I know J loves me---I knew it before we were dealing with this (obviously), but since, it has become even clearer to me. After our 5th IUI I was really devastated. I couldn't believe it. He sat with me and said simply, 'I just want you to be happy, I hate to see you like this'. I have a bunch of stories like that in my memory with J. I couldn't be luckier or loved more. He really has shown me what love is and I know, that someday soon, he will be the best dad in the world!

I have found this great website that really does make me laugh  http://www.999reasonstolaugh.com/
It is absolutely hysterical! I love it! I am still loving the 2 ww wait before the storm of fertility medication. I am also going to let J deal with the clinic's financial dept--after watching Young Victoria, I realize that he needs to have a job in all of this. A job that extends  beyond 5 minutes and a sterile cup.



My hope for tonight is..that next year I get to celebrate Valentine's Day by reading this to J and remembering what is what like to struggle with fertility feelings VS. waking up in the middle of the night with a baby.