Today I woke up with absolutely no pregnancy symptoms. Which shouldn't seem weird at all, since my current pregnancy is in HCG number only. It was just weird to have no cramps, or swelling or sore boobs. Nothing. It struck me though, this is me for now. I should be 10 weeks pregnant, but I am not. And that is that. Have you heard people say that a song you are singing or a quote that pops in your mind is a sign of your current state/subconscious. Today out of nowhere, I thought to myself, "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.". That pretty much sums it up. I feel bad seeming so whiny and complaining--I promise I am really actually pretty UP.
One of my infertile (PCOS) friends announced on FACEBOOK she was pregnant. When I pressed "like" she wrote on my wall that she wanted to tell me in person and was sorry she didn't. I am legitimately happy for her, for any infertile actually (and we all know every time I see a pregnant woman I assume she was at one time an IVF client). When I mentioned it to my friend she said, it's okay for you to not be happy for her. No it's not. I am dealing with infertility, that doesn't make me a witch. I mean, maybe sometimes but not really.
My hope, low numbers on Sunday AND naturally occurring pregnancies for all the couples dealing with infertility!!
I am a 35 (almost 36) year old with a supportive and loving husband and one fabulous golden fur-baby! After many failed IUI's and a fresh IVF cycle ending in ectopic---We had a successful FET. 40 weeks of disbelief later we are parents to a beautiful baby girl--every moment I spend with our baby reminds me of how blessed and lucky we are. ...read at your own risk. Of course not one thing I write is meant to offend or upset anyone.
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