It is amazing how this whole process has really helped me lower my expectations and change my perspective on what is good news. I have had little side effects this round of Methotrexate. Does that mean it is working? Does that mean it is not working? I have no idea. I am just happy for and in every moment that I am not feeling badly. I go for blood work on Thursday and I have no expectation at all. If it goes up, well, they said that could happen. If it goes down, well, they said that could happen. I want this ectopic over. Much to my dismay as of right now, is I have no bleeding (still). Some of the docs have said it could just be absorbing back into my system, but I think we would all feel better if I saw something. I can't even bring myself to think about what happens if it doesn't work, what that means and entails---it is beyond me. I am not positive or negative. I am emotionally spent and really numb right now. One thing I am so happy about is since this round of Metho is not bad, if I need it again in the future (this time or for another ectopic) I can handle this.
My hope---this shot works and we can close this chapter in our IVF story.
I am a 35 (almost 36) year old with a supportive and loving husband and one fabulous golden fur-baby! After many failed IUI's and a fresh IVF cycle ending in ectopic---We had a successful FET. 40 weeks of disbelief later we are parents to a beautiful baby girl--every moment I spend with our baby reminds me of how blessed and lucky we are. ...read at your own risk. Of course not one thing I write is meant to offend or upset anyone.
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