"The only thing stronger than fear is hope"
    - The Hunger Games


The role hope plays in infertility cannot be underestimated. It seems like I was either full of hope or lacking it completely. Hope for me was like my pilot light. Always inside of me. Even when I wanted to believe it was gone. It was always there. If we had never had a baby I would have always carried it around with me. Even when I turned 100--it would have burned! I hate infertility. I wish that every person who wanted  baby could have one. I think hope is inevitable in the mind of a person facing infertility. I think it is stronger than doubt. To me hope is what keeps me going everyday. The hope that tomorrow will be better than today, my hope that I will be better everyday. And my hope that everyone who wants a baby--will have one.


"..but as for me, I will always have hope".
-Psalm 71:14

Hope springs eternal....

Baby H is a girl!  A precious little girl born on 7/6/12 @ 1:54 PM. She weighed 8 lbs 4 oz. I had a wonderful delivery via C section and the recovery was really not bad at all. Tomorrow she will be 4 weeks old! I cannot believe that. I have loved spending every day with her--even the last few nights when she has had horrible gas (HEARTBREAKING to see her struggling). I absolutely am in love with her. The second I saw her. Love. She is who I have been waiting for my whole life and now I cannot imagine my life without her.

I have to say not a day goes by that I don't think of the journey we have been on together. I look at her and I say--see those toes---we made those toes--you and me baby! We did that. Even if the clinic did most of the stuff we couldn't do. The 39 weeks she was inside me (since she was a week late)--that was all Baby H and me. Everyday I thank God for her and everyday I say a prayer for all the women out there who are still holding on to hope.


Welcome to the world little girl!